Pathetic. (inglès)

Even if i'm wrong
i don't want to know
im just wondering
if all of this is real...
im just trying to survive
with all my fears.

please...please...
if im not right
don't let me know...
just show me the way
of life that i ever dream on.

all is a lie? you were always pretending?
to be what? a miserable soul?
life's poem, or a joke
i don't want to figure it out
don't want to cry.. no more, no more.

just hear me a second,
i'm trying, i'm sorry...it's hard.
i'm dying, the air is taking my phrases away...
i'm realazing that i was SO happy
now look at me! look me!
i'm here, SO pathetic laughing.